I need a life.

So, I guess I’m writing because Aunt Cherie wants me to. And because I kind of miss writing.

I haven’t had much time, as you can see.

Or, like, anything to talk about. But, you know. It happens. [a lot.]

I’m currently sitting in Borders, pretending to do homework, but actually shamelessly promoting all of the things I’m doing this month. It’s ridiculous.

First of all, it’s the annual book drive for the Harry Potter Alliance. Accio Books! is kind of the coolest idea anyone has ever come up with. It’s basically just a giant book drive, and with me being the head of the St Pete chapter of the HPA [which, I have to admit, I am doing an incredibly poor job of, but I'm working on it] I’m gathering a crapton of books to be donated to either New York for a library that’s being built as an attachment to a school, or a local library. Mostly dependent upon shipping costs. :]

SO. If you want to donate some books, or some money for postage, please!! send me a message or email or just come see me or text me or whatever. <3

We’re doing pretty well so far, but you can never have too many books. If you’re done with ‘em, send ‘em my way. :]

SECOND. There’s a Walk for Life going on May 7th! It’s gonna be great. I’m leading a team [which is currently my mom and I] and I’m also trying to raise some money for that. All that information [which I won't bore you with here] is at this website: http://www.fundeasy.com/m/647981/

It’s gonna be good times. Come out and walk if you can! ^_^ If not, pleasepleaseplease, spread that link around. I only have about 3 weeks left. I’ll be shamelessly promoting that one quite a bit. :]

THIRD! The Final Battle is putting on another performance at LeakyCon2011!! XD I’m really ridiculously excited about it. But I definitely need your help. Each cast member needs to raise about $50 for the show, and I can’t do that without you guys [because I'm broke too.]. I know that I know at least $50 people, and if you can all give a single, then we’re set. You know what I mean? :] haha.

We’re also trying to raise some money for The Warlock’s Hairy Heart, which is Lena [the girl who wrote The Final Battle]‘s newest project. It’s going to be insanely spectacular. A wrock opera, I believe? Anyway. If you want more information on that, please message me. I’ll get some more info out soon as I get it myself.

For TFB, we’re gonna be having a whole bunch of little fundraisers, like a wizard rock compilation CD, and stuff like that. It’s gonna be awesome.

I know, I know. You’re all thinking, YOU ONLY WRITE ON THIS THING TO GET MONEY FROM US.

MY MONEY.

MYYYY MONEYYYYY.

…. No. Incorrect. I’m writing here actually because Aunt Cherie reminded me I have a blog. AND to get money from you guys.

Or help spreading the word. If you can show people this blog, or if you can add it into one of your VEDA videos or something like that, that’s all I need. I’m not the only one shamelessly promoting. But I definitely could use your help.

You are all wonderful. You know that. You don’t need me to tell you that. But you really, really are. Absolutely wonderful.

<3

I’ll see you all the next time I get the urge to send out a massive amount of crazytalk or whatever. As per usual. :]

Iloveyouall.

<3

Namaste. <(^.^*)> <3

Answer here

However, the former has definitely been the truer of the two.

I have been INCREDIBLY busy. With musicals and conventions and having my first job and trying to figure out a way to fit everything together into one cohesive work of art that has become my life.

It’s been very, very difficult.

But. I think I’m on the right track, which is super awesome. But I’m sure you don’t want to hear about that, really.

I do have some other things to talk about while I’m here.

First of all. I just got home from seeing Scott Pilgrim vs. The World. And I have to say — it was COMPLETELY FANTASTIC. I really loved it. I knew it was based on a manga, so I was completely confused about how they were going to make it work and not make it suck… they did. It was amazing.

Someday I’ll rent the manga from the library and actually know what it was supposed to be like, but I thought it was a really well done movie. It was kind of cheesy, but I think they definitely pulled it off without seeming horrible… Because there’s a difference between good cheesy and bad cheesy, and this was definitely brilliant.

I still have so much to do. The movie was a nice break from reality, and I seriously wish that things like that could actually happen, because that was extremely boss, but… until then, I’ll just deal with what I’ve got now.

I just turned 20 on Tuesday, and I have to say it was one of the best days of my life. Legit, it’s going to be damn near impossible to top. Yeah.

Besides a few crises and nearly messing up everything I’d ever built up with my best friend, I spent the first 20 minutes of the day [at like, 12.30 or whatever, when I saw all the posts on Facebook] sobbing because I have friends. Don’t mock me.

And then I spent the day with some of my favorite people in the whole widest of worlds.

If any of you AVPM cast kids are reading this — you’re legitimately my favourite people in the whole widest of worlds. No lie. I could talk to any of you for days and not get tired of you. Even though there’s tension sometimes, and everybody gets involved in drama here and there, you all are some of the coolest kids I’ve ever met. Thanks for making my birthday the best I’ve ever had.

I’m really sad that a couple of people got left out, and some people didn’t come, but…. I suppose it is what it is. I tried, but… I fail a lot. xP

Either way, this year is going to be my best year yet. I have far too much planned, but I’m going to fit it all in because I’m finally getting to do what I love, and loving what I do, and I’m going to make the best of it. :]

PLUS, HARRY POTTER 7 COMES OUT IN NOVEMBER. It’s obviously going to be a fantastic year. The series is almost over, but NOT QUITE. So it’s not like, the end of the world or anything.

But yeah. It’s been pretty crazy. Such is life.

I’ve been trying to think a lot more lately, but I haven’t really had a chance to. Someday I’ll come up with a useful topic for you all to read about. :] Like… life. Or some sort of lesson. Or… something.

Maybe someday, a chapter from my book. I’ve got a whole bunch of ideas floating around up in this great big air-filled head of mine. It’s pretty awesome.

So… I guess… this is it until I get the chance to write again.

Namaste, you fantastic people, you.

<3

Stephanie.

And I just wanted to take this moment to completely realize and write about them all, because… well…
Basically, other than a few little minor things that can’t actually be helped due to my current location and some things in my past that don’t really matter anymore…. my life is pretty perfect. Sure, I get stressed out and freak out about things, and I don’t like it when my parents fight and I hate it when I have people ticked off at me for doing things that I shouldn’t have done or that I didn’t mean to do or that I didn’t do but they thought I did but it was just really a completely ridiculous misunderstanding…. but… other than that, my life is really going in an incredibly awesome direction.

There is way too much in my life right now that I could tell you about. ALL of it is ridiculously frakking awesome. I’m completely surrounded by so much awesome that I can’t help but try my very, very hardest to dish some of it back out, because that’s what you’re supposed to do, even when your life is sucking royal hippogriff [props to the A Very Potter Musical writers for that one.].

But seriously, though. There’s really so much going on in my life that I’m really, really grateful for.

• I have a loving family [no matter how much they may or may not resent me or whatever, and no matter how much we may bicker, we're still together.];
• I have the best friends anyone could possibly ask for, and then some…. and even my acquaintances are supremely boss;
• I’m in the midst of a really fun, albeit a little bit troublesome on account of how long it is, summer class with a really awesome teacher;
• I’m in the middle of two really, really awesome musicals that just can’t stop being amazing, and the people in them are just purely awesome and all of them are made of win and I love them to pieces… my life would not be as cool as it is right now if I didn’t have those two things in them, and I can’t believe that I get to be a part of them. ME. Lousy, ridiculous, sometimes-funny-on-accident ME is a part of it all…. history in the making, no joke;
• I’M GOING TO INFINITUS in a little over a month. O_O I’M FREAKING OUT ABOUT THIS.;
• I’m part of a YouTube collaboration, which I’m so ridiculously excited about, and I’m hoping to have my own vlogs to go along with that [I'm currently working on some stuff, so be on the lookout]….;
• I’ve got a bloody UKULELE and I’ve already learned how to play three songs that I can actually play and sing and I’m just getting so much further in my musical pursuits than I ever have in my entire life [and you have no idea how badly I wish Grandpa was here to see and hear them, but I have a feeling he's up there jamming to some Jason Mraz as we speak... you KNOW all the guys with wings love Mr. A-Z, of course.] …. and I’m just… so proud of that. That I’ve finally gotten to a point in my life where I can DO things, they just HAPPEN and I DO them and I’m getting things DONE and… you don’t even know how that feels;
• I’m about to have my first JOB. Yeah. I said it. J. O. B. Although it’s definitely minimum wage, minimum wage is SO MUCH MORE than no-nimum wage, you know what I mean?;
• I still have my sanity, and I’ve actually gained some back after everything that’s happened so far… I feel like I’ve accomplished more in these past few months than I have in my entire previous 18 years.

There’s so much more, but I won’t keep you up with it all.

I’m just…. I’m so proud to be where I am today. Everything that happened in the past had to happen in order for me to be here, and for that reason [and that reason only, perhaps] is why I’m really thankful for my past, especially at moments like this. Where I’m just… I’m in awe of where my life is going.

I know that things aren’t perfect, and that they’ll never be perfect.

And maybe I’ll never finish writing the songs I’ve started today.

And maybe I’ll never get to be a huge name on the YouTube circuit.

But at least I’ve made a mark. On the giant schematic of life, I’ve made my little pencil mark. I’ve put myself out there for other people to judge, and for the first time in my life — I LIKE IT. I like myself. I’ve watched my video on Nerdvana a couple of times already, and I don’t feel squeamish. I mean, I do, but not like I used to.

That just…. boggles my mind, that I’ve finally gotten to a point where that’s okay. Where I’m okay with being myself.

That’s what happens when you get parts in musicals. :] haha.

I’ve just… I don’t even know what to say anymore. I can’t say thank you enough to everyone who was, is, or will be in my life at any point in time.

I hope that I never lose those I have now. I’ve made more lasting friendships in the last few months than I’ve ever made, and I hope I keep every single one of them.

I don’t care about drama, I’ve moved on in my life and I’m okay with who I am. I know I’ve said that before, but I’ve never truly meant it.

Fake it ’til you make it, at its finest.

… I’m really just in awe of what I have in front of me. I kept feeling like my life was going nowhere, like I was never going to do anything of worth no matter how much I tried. I thought I’d only affect my own life, and if I were to disappear, I wouldn’t be more missed than a dead leaf from a willow.

I’ve finally come to a point where I don’t have to be the lead in everyone’s lives, I don’t HAVE to be the person that everyone thinks about all the time. I thought I had to be before, because I just really wanted people to care about me.

Well…. if you don’t care about me, that’s cool.

I’m totally okay with it now.

Because I care about myself. And that’s all I needed all along.

I care about myself and what I’m doing, and that’s something that I’ve needed to hear from myself for forever, and I could never honestly tell myself that. I mean, I didn’t want to hurt myself most of the time, but I didn’t care about myself either.

Now…. I do. I believe in myself, and I care about myself, and I feel like the luckiest girl in the whole world, because I have the world within arms reach.

That’s what YouTube’s all about, huh. :]

I’m really excited to be moving forward in my life.

I hope you guys are too, because you’re coming along with me, whether you like it or not. Just because you’re reading this. You’re stuck with me. :]

Namaste.

<3

Stephanie.

I have quite a many thing to do. That sounds grammatically incorrect.

But either way, I have to finish a book and a review of the book by May 31st. It’s a book from Japan. It’s a pre-release ebook of a vampire book from Japan. BAMF.

Anyway.

So I just wanted to make a quick note about something.

I’m not going to make this beginning of summer like last year’s beginning of summer. I’m not going to be depressed. I’m not. I refuse. I. WILL. NOT.

And legitimately, up until a few hours ago, I was very, very, clearly depressed.

That hug from Mom helped quite a bit.

And then talking to Sara for a gajillion hours helped some too. Although that kind of made it so that I wasn’t depressed, I was angry AND depressed. But for the right reasons, not just for the fun of it, like I was earlier in the night.

ANYWAY.

And then I started watching YouTube videos.

Yes. It’s going to be another one of those posts.

I started watching some Nerimon [also known as Alex Day] and LittleRadge [also known as Liam] and Charlieissocoollike [also known as Charlie Mcdonnell] videos. Yes. Videos from random kids in random countries that are not the United States.

I haven’t slept yet. I’ve been wired on Mountain Dew and the mocha shake from Steak’n'Shake.

But anyway. Those videos basically lifted my mood a ridiculous amount.

I might feel crappy again later today, but finally I felt a little bit of reprieve within the last few hours thanks to these lovely and talented gentlemen. Oh, and a couple Meekakitty videos too.

Basically, I just want to give a great big shoutout to YouTube and a thanks to the aforementioned Tubers for being awesome and making my life hurt less.

Thank you. <3

Until next time. Don’t be a stranger. :] I’ll update more, I swear.

Namaste.

<3

Stephanie.

I’d still probably freak out if I got to meet them. Like, complete fangirl.

But I’ve realized a lot of things while looking at these pictures. Because I’m going through my pictures on my computer and deleting a whole bunch to make room for everything new that I want to put on this computer… it was running out of space on the disk drive, can you believe that?

Anyway, I’ve realized a lot of things. First of all, we were absolutely freaking NUTS when we were obsessed with them. Second, I still love them to pieces.

Third… I’ve learned a lot and grown up even more than I ever thought possible since I last was obsessed with them. I try not to obsess so much over stuff, but it’s the nature of me… I just obsess on accident. I don’t try to. I really don’t. But with things I like, I just can’t get them off my mind and then I can’t not talk about them. I will legit, like, explode if I don’t get it out somewhere.

Way too many people, I think, judge me on what I’m obsessed with at the moment. Believe me, I’m made up of far more things than you think I am. FAR more. I’ve grown up so much since I last was obsessed with them, though. I’ve grown to like things with a bit more of a sophisticated taste, I think. While they’re still awesome, I like a wider variety of things, rather than just Disney kid stuff. Which is really, really liberating.

Fourth, I still want to be them. When I first saw When You Look Me In The Eyes, the music video for it brought me to tears for 10 minutes straight because I found what I truly wanted. I thought that what I wanted more than anything was to be a musician for tweens and teens. But actually, I’ve realized that what I really want is an audience. I don’t care what I do to get it, I just want an audience, not to be a musician per se. I would still love to be, but I really don’t like to be in the audience myself for things. I want to be the center of attention, I want to have people looking up at me and being all “Man, I wish I was her.”

I don’t care if that means I’m a standup comic, or a musician, or a novelist who writes and speaks at conventions and stuff. Or if it means I’m a vlogger on YouTube. That would be so awesome. I can’t wait for that to start up.

But I also realized that I want to be an artist. More than anything. I want to be a well-rounded, intelligent, creative being who just spends her life getting paid to create rather than to fall in line and enter data into some big corporation that eats up all the little starving artists out there. I want to write and to film and to draw and to paint and to imagine and everything that’s attached to the artistic stigma.

I want it all, basically.

But… there are a lot of things that I want, and a lot of things that I haven’t worked up to getting yet. So that’s where I have to start [most unfortunately].

But I just wanted to say a quick thanks to everyone who stuck with me through that silly phase. I mean, it’s not a phase like pokemon or whatever… I’m changed forever because of the Jonas Brothers, and I’ll love them and their music forever and ever, and that will NEVER change. I’m just… I’ve moved on from the obsession phase. I don’t HAVE to have tickets to every show of theirs in the Tampa and Orlando areas. I don’t have to see them on every TV show they’re on. But I still love them.

I just need to get all of the repetitive and completely useless pictures off of my computer so I have room for other repetitive and completely useless things I want to save. :]

And with that, I bid you all adieu.

Namaste.

<3

Stephanie.

Like, a LOT.

But you probably already knew that. ‘Cause I figure you guys are pretty smart. I mean, if you read my ramble, maybe you have some questionable motives, but you’re definitely not dumb. *claps*

Sooo. I went to a Bo Burnham show in Clearwater on Friday.

Best. Show. I. Have. Ever. Seen. In. My. Life. And I’ve seen some REALLY FREAKING AWESOME shows.

Basically, the best part about it is how much of a complete nerd he is. I mean, from some of his songs, I knew that he was smart, but he’s like… He probably could have passed IB. I’m just assuming here, but he seems like brilliant. He rapped about Shakespeare and wrote a sonnet and beat some guy down that was like, heckling but not really because he was saying that he thought Bo was super talented. I don’t even know about that one.

But it was just a really great show. He’s a really talented kid.

And honestly, he’s the only person I’ve ever so far seen, listened to, met, taken a picture with/of, or even heard of that has ever made me want to practice or to be a better human being.

I don’t mean, like, he makes me want to save the planet or anything.

He makes me want to learn how to play piano, and to get better at guitar, and to think more and to learn more and to be more. I can’t say that about anyone else, literally. [and unfortunately]. I think that’s my favorite part about him.

And the fact that he recited the basic entirety of the Hamlet speech and then dissed it because he’s too cool for that. [hah. not. but totally is.] And when he came out at the stage door he was incredibly sweet rather than being a complete d-bag and getting all nasty with people and making fun of them for saying he was awesome.

Which came as a total shock to me. But anyway.

I don’t remember the full details of the show. But he sang about being an artist, which I want to have that song on YouTube or on CD someday because it totally describes who I want to be / who I am somewhere inside… It was like, Art is dead, but all these people who are poor and should have all this money don’t have it because I have it, and I’m just an artist, but art is dead…. It’s hard to explain, cause I don’t know all the words, and it’s been a few days. But it was probably my second favorite part.

And then he sat and talked with us sometimes… like, well, more like people shouted at him and he was like, Alright let’s talk. :] He’s pretty awesome at improv, probably. Unless that was all staged, which it could have been, I wouldn’t put it past him.

And then he said something about poetry that was completely deep and made sense and whatever, and then bashed that too. Which… that would probably get annoying after a while, but I think he only does that in shows. He’s probably not a complete jerk in real life. Which would be awesome.

Oh, and there was Red Bull. I kind of wanted it. ‘Cause waiting there for an hour before the show and listening to these two complete ho’s talk about guys and whatever, and the fact that they didn’t know who in the world he was besides seeing one YouTube song… ugh. Gross. But yeah.

The show was awesome.

He sang New Math, which made me really happy… along with I’m Bo, Yo, which are two of my favorite songs of his; in I’m Bo, Yo, he added a couple of verses too. And there was an unfinished song that he messed up on [which, again, I think was staged]…. and he broke the mic stand a couple of times, which was NOT staged because he laughed at himself… I knew that some things just weren’t supposed to happen just because he cracked a smile.

He mentioned something about the only thing that was too sacred to make fun of was white people… which he made fun of anyway. Like, when you make fun of old people, you make fun of white people, you know? Because white people are categorized in all those other categories besides the racial ones, so he’s still making fun of them. But you know. I think that part itself was making fun of them.

What else happened? I can’t remember.

I got a signed polaroid with him. Definitely my favorite polaroid yet. He’s so tall. But he knows that. And EVERYONE asked him if he knew that, I was like… uhm… REALLY? Well, they said things like “Man, you’re tall!” and whatever. He was probably like, “You all need to NOT say that, because guess what, I KNOW” or something. But yeah.

UHM… Besides the show, which has been on my mind for the last few days, I just have to say that I absolutely love Nerdfighteria. I love being involved in it. It’s basically the Harry Potter fandom EXPANDED to include even MORE people…

Plus it’s all over YouTube and I haven’t been this excited about anything in months. Besides my part as Hermione. :]

But yeah. There’s a lot that I could talk about there, but it would be completely irrelevant to those of you who have no idea what it is and whatever… But it’s awesome. I think all of you should take a look at Hank and John’s vlogs, they’re pretty freakin’ hilarious. :]

Basically, over the last few weeks, life has been pretty awesome. I think I’m heading in the right direction. I know it’s going to get rough again, but I’m enjoying the not-having-to-worry-and-whatever-and-stress thing for a while.

I’ve been learning new things and wanting to be good and doing the things that I’ve said I was going to do, but I don’t.

I can play quite a few songs on the piano now [including the beginning of Hurt by Christina Aguilera! xD I'm very excited about that one] and I’m hoping to make a video of Nerdfighterlike and learn some more Myrtles songs soon… I just have way too many goals. Being that it’s summer, though, it should make it a TON easier… I’ll be able to have free time to do whatever I want and everything. That’ll be nice.

So I’ll be able to do whatever, and I’ll feel awesome for doing whatever. And hopefully I’ll get back into the whole Yoga thing, and start running again — I’ve already started doing more rifle work, and I’ve lost like, 6 pounds. Which is awesome. But it was probably not really anything… Once I get back down like, 5 more pounds, THEN I’ll be excited about it again. xD

But yeah. I’m getting somewhere. Which is [tying everything together! yay] why I love Bo Burnham and YouTube. They’re helping me through this stage of my life. My last chapter closed with last semester, I think. And this new chapter is going to be exceptionally tragic and awesome at the same time, because everything will change, and I’m going to love it but hate it, but this time I’m going to DO it, because I need to or I’ll die.

So yeah. Things are going well. A lot of things seem to still be in transition. We’ll call this my transition period. May it NOT be as unfortunate as it could be, but only as unfortunate as it HAS to be. xD

Namaste.

<3

Stephanie.

Holy crapnoli, Batman.

You don’t even know. I’m so tired of school right now. The fact that I have an entire week [actually, 10 days] with which to fill with AWESOMENESS, I can’t even begin to describe how awesome of a feeling that is. I don’t have to go to school.

But I do have to spend my time doing things. Like: Getting ready for Summer A [ehhh...], catch up on some SERIOUS YouTube-age, hang out with Bridget and Sara and other people who would like to enjoy my presence before I like, lose all of my friends [ahahha], clean up my room and have a garage sale, look for a job, find a job, get a job, etc.etc.etc.

It’s gonna be awesome.

PLUS I have to start writing for the Examiner more. I got that one article out no problem, but now I’m having a hard time with planning things to do and whatever. I’ve got a few ideas, I just need to write them out. I’m not really an expert in my field, but whatever. I can fake it, right?

… Right.

My life has been pretty awesome so far. How about yours?

Namaste.

<3

Stephanie.

Then yesterday was LOADED with awesome.

So many good things happened at one time. It was so stressful, but at the same time it was so worth it today. I don’t know how I got through it — my mind started running around in circles and I couldn’t keep up. O_O

And then today was loaded with even MORE awesome.

Monday, I finished my Shakespeare paper, talked with some really awesome nerdfighters about starting a YouTube/Tumblr collaboration, then my chem exam, then my Brit Lit paper and had some delicious noms with Sara while working on our papers. THEN, I found out that I GOT THE PART OF HERMIONE in the Accio Actors production of A Very Potter Musical. I am so freaking excited about that you have NO idea. NO. IDEA.

AND THEN THAT NIGHT I got to sleep. Which was AWESOME. And then I saw Lauren’s video about her study on YouTube and how it affects those who are a part of it. That was super awesome. And then Tuesday we performed our Shakespeare piece, which was RIDICULOUSLY AMAZING OMG. And then went home and did some more awesome stuff including sleeping. Again.

And then TODAY, I got to see some of my favorite people in the whole world after their Math IB Exams, and got some Starbucks and party decorations and stuff, along with had some of the best yogurt I have ever had, EVER. And THEN I got to buy my Bo Burnham ticket, and it’s row A seat 9. THAT’S LEGIT TWO OFF CENTER FRONT ROW.

I kind of want to cry. A lot. Because I’m just… Even though it’s been kind of a ridiculously stressful week, at the same time it’s been the best week of my life.

I’ve just gotten so much this week… I don’t know what to do.

I don’t know what I did to deserve this, either. Like, I don’t know what divine power up there [God? Allah? Shiva/Vishnu/Demi/Ganesh? Karma?] decided that this week would be the best week of my life… …. I don’t know.

I’ve been knocked speechless more times in this week than I have in my entire life. And that’s a LOT of times. I can’t even think straight.

[which makes studying for my last exam really, really, REALLY difficult.]

But whatever power it was, or even if it was just all of my friends conspiring for me… just know that I am so incredibly, incredibly, incredibly grateful for everything, beyond the power of words. I don’t know what I did to deserve this, because I’m not sure what changed, but something did. I’m practicing more, I’m more levelheaded in my responses, I’m saying no to things even though I don’t want to let anyone down… Things are changing again, and I don’t know what or who is behind it, but they just need to know that I am incredibly grateful.

I really don’t know what I could have done to have deserved everything that’s happened this week. And I know about a thousand more people who are WAY more deserving of all of this than I am. But somehow, I got blessed with it. I just… I don’t know. How or why.

I have this bad feeling that something horrible is going to happen, and this is just bracing me for impact, but I still have hope that this is just an upturn in my life. Another one. I don’t know, but I don’t particularly care at this point. I just hope that things get better for everyone else, too. I really do. Because even though money is tight and parents fight and friends make you want to be in 10,000 places at once… everything’s good.

Life’s good.

And even though people are in exams and whatever. We’re so much closer to getting to fully live our lives.

I’ve learned a lot of things about myself this week, including some things that aren’t so pretty. But everything is going to change.

I have so much to be thankful for, and to be perfectly honest, this is the first time I’ve really thought about it all. I really do have so much that other people don’t have. While I have my own problems [and trust me, just being in my own brain is a problem, hahah] I still have so much more than the average person does. And while the world continues to decline around me, I have a feeling that my generation and I are going to be able to pick it back up. Those extremes are going to be flipped, and the bad people won’t be so bad anymore.

Like Anne Frank said, I truly believe that people are really good at heart. No one is innately bad. So.. I think things are changing and things have changed. And I hope they keep changing.

And like I said before… I am so incredibly grateful for everything and for everyone that I have in my life. I’ve been able to do so many things and I’ve made some ridiculously amazing friends and I’ve learned about people and myself and everything that life has to offer. I’ve started some new chapter in my life, closing one that I didn’t know needed to be closed.

And I’m so, so, so, so grateful for all of you, and for everything you’ve given to me. And a massive thank you to God/Karma/whatever divine power is making my life so awesome and helping me make the right choices.

Namaste; and an incredible amount of love.

<3

Stephanie.

It shouldn’t be too long. I’m too hyped up to keep on one subject for too long.

Plus I’ve typed a CRAP-TON today already. I might just take a nap for a little bit. After I make that cheat-sheet. Haha.

Anyway. So I finished my Shakespeare paper just now. It took me forever, because I was talking to Sara and some girls from Nerdfighteria about doing a YouTube collaboration, which I’m RIDICULOUSLY excited about, but I’ll leave that for later when more details have been hammered down. UHM… but yeah. I finished a paper. Yay! I thought it was a pretty good paper, actually. It was pretty easy to do, since it’s on the same topic as our final group performance thing. Sex and sexuality in Measure for Measure. Pretty simple, considering that’s the basis of the whole plotline.

But now I have to work on my Brit Lit paper, which I’m going to be writing about Sir Gawain and the Green Knight and The Seafarer, most likely. I just have to come up with some thesis-es for them, and I’ll be set to go. And then I have this stupid chem exam, and then a crap-ton of reading to do to study for my Brit Lit final on Thursday.

This week has been so full.

But I’m celebrating on Friday night with a Bo Burnham show. I’m going to be buying the tickets tonight, I’m SO freaking excited about it.

I really like his YouTube stuff. He’s lewd and crude, but really cool. He’s probably a complete sweetheart deep down, but on the surface he thinks he’s a BAMF. Which he kind of is, but you know. He’s a lanky dork type kid. And his humor is so my humor, just with more sex involved. Somewhat unfortunate, but whatevah. :]

BUT ANYWAY.

I can’t keep typing and expect to get anything done. So I’m going to skadiddle. Have a fun night, er… Morning.

Namaste

<3

Stephanie.